Evolution of Space

As you might recall, I recently pieced together a fabric sample wall art "head board" .  While I'm pleased with that phase of the project, the evolution of the space is still in process.  I'm not entirely content with the wall yet and the bed needs some dressing up. 


My duvet has been lying naked for a while because the bold red duvet cover (which was graciously given to me) made creating a combined master retreat/nursery difficult.  Whether you like it or not, baby boys get blue things; resistance may not be futile but it is frustrating none-the-less.  I want to make the space a place of peace for my adult self, while still embracing the coming baby dweller.


The other day, while searching my wallet for something important (which I can't remember), I found an old gift card to Bed Bath and Beyond.  Glee shot through me.  Free shopping - a girl's best friend.  I felt adequately armed with my new treasure AND the 20% off coupon which I'd received in the mail.  The search commenced.

I initially intended to keep the bed simple, maybe even white, so I gave that a go.  I liked the cloud effect, but the bed felt boring and disconnected from the space.


So, I took my 13-year-old daughter back with me to BB&B and we went a different route...

I actually loved this duvet cover.  It's colorful, bohemian and very soft.  BUT.  The yellow was a little too bright and the pattern a bit too contemporary for the vintage quilting in the room.  


I did like the eclectic quality though, so decided to pursue that further...

I'm feeling pretty good with this green and white number.  It's lacking in style on it's own, but with the butter bed skirt and deep turquoise pillows, it will work.  (The soft white blanket is actually intended as a barrier between the dogs and my bedding.  It works about 20% of the time, when they forget to dig themselves into my pillows.)

The empty frame on the wall is NOT a completed detail.  It is actually an old frame which used to house a painting of me as a little girl.  My grandparents had it commissioned many years ago.  When my grandmother went into an alzhiemer's care home, my grandfather gave me the painting. 


The frame is very in keeping with it's era (mid 70's).  It's gold and gaudy... and I kinda love it.  

My mother took this picture while I played in a park.
She made that outfit for me.

A while back the painting fell out of it, so I set the painting on a shelf and have been trying to decide how else to use the frame.  I don't mind it hanging over the bed, but not empty.  What to fill it with.....  hmmmm.  I'll get back to you on that. 




So this is the room as it stands now.  The leopard chair has to fit somewhere else in the house as I need that corner for my old rocking chair (given to me by my aunt when Kinsey was born).

Oliver standing at his post, protecting our home from the many squealing children running past my window.  He doesn't understand my lack of appreciation for his efforts.

** To see more evolution of my spaces, click on the page link, "Belmont Cottage" at the top of the blog**

Full Blown Nesting (Biscuit's Quilt!!)

My mom and I have made blankets for each one of my babies, so we used my recent visit to work together on Biscuit's quilt.  His was even more necessary than the others because he is using a mini crib which does not come with a plethora of cute crib bedding.  

As you know, I've been piecing through my piles of discontinued fabric samples from work.  I pulled several and took them with me on my trip.  I was also thrilled that my sister in law found and gave me a Wendy Belissimo leopard print crib sheet which I had given her years ago.  I was able to alter it to fit the mini crib mattress which left me with enough remaining fabric to use in the quilt.

After A LOT of deliberation, we came up with our favorite scraps and started putting the puzzle together.  Mom also bought me two complimentary fabrics and the minky dot fabric for the backing.  We had also stopped by Babies-R-Us where I had a gift card and bought two diaper stackers which were on clearance.  One I will use as intended.  The other I tore apart for parts.  Hence the elephant in the center of the quilt.

It took many hours to piece the strips together.  It was a challenge to sew the various textures to each other without puckering and sliding.  It was a good feeling when the face of the quilt was complete.


Then came the hand-tying and the edging.  The tying wasn't too difficult.  It did take some creativity since the quilt is not in uniform squares.  I had to be careful to tie it in a pattern which wouldn't look horrific on the back of the quilt.  


The edging was easy to decide on but I think I sewed it on three times before I was able to get it lined up right.  I had even ironed it into shape and pinned it closely all around.  It was just a real challenge with the varying textures and seams.  And mitering the corners was a pain in the ass.

It's not perfect, but there's charm in that.  All in all, I'm thrilled with the end result.

Here you can see the leopard sheet and minky dot backing.

I also bought green tulle to use for a crib skirt.  I'm excited about that.  I don't think I'll be using a bumper at all.

There is something so satisfying about setting baby's bed up.  Like, now he can come home.  All is well.

Sleeping in My Bed Tonight

I just spent eight hours in a hot car with my three kids and a bunch of stuff.  

We made the journey back home today, after our two week friend/family-a-thon.  I would have driven the I-5 but was worried about Thelma making it over the Grapevine in the heat.  (We've decided to name the beater Thelma - kinda makes her special that way.)  For those of you who don't know, the Grapevine is a long stretch of the 5 freeway which goes up and over mountains to take you from L.A. to about 200 miles of desolation.  


Anyway, to avoid the possibility of a pregnant lady and three kids madly escaping a wagon inferno amidst endless fields of kindling, I opted to drive home via the 101 (always makes me hum,  "Ventura Highway, in the Summer time..").  I love driving the 101.  It's lined with all of my favorites: beaches, farms, quaint towns, vineyards...   Good for the soul.  Even the kids seemed soothed by it.


It shouldn't have taken eight hours to make the trip but Mama had to take lots of "potty breaks" (Grrrr), which inevitably resulted in Thelma-refueling, gum-buying, and seat-renegotiating.  Throw in traffic and collection of the dogs and a six hour trip was successfully extended to eight.


Still, my kids were fantastic.  I didn't have one frazzled-mom moment.  A notably amazing feat.


In truth, I was dreading today.  Not because of the drive, I actually love road trips; but because it means I have to go back to facing life... alone.  I know I'm not entirely alone, but somewhere over the years I drew into myself and abandoned that social butterfly I once was.  I'm sure there are great explanations for this, and I'm certain that my therapists are hard at work solving it for me.  In the mean time, I'm back home, alone, after two weeks of soaking in the love and support of time-tested friends and family.

***Long Sigh***

So, here I am.  These first few hours haven't been bad.  In fact, I was surprised by how good it felt to drive down the familiar streets of Pleasanton.  And stepping into our sweet little home was... nice.  The kids helped unload the car then bolted off to reconnect with the neighborhood gang.  I didn't mind.  They needed to run and yell a bit.  I opened the windows to let the cool breeze in, plugged in the chinese lanterns in the garden, loved on the pups, and did the preliminary sorting of the stuff.  Feels good to be here.  It's mine.  Ours.  Home.

A few visions from my Mom's garden...

If all dentist's chairs were in gardens I might have fewer cavities.

Peter Gabriel and Anne Sexton

A lovely blend of poetic talent.  

Just wanted to share if you've never heard it before.

Excuse Me, While I Kiss the Sky...

I'm having one of those Monkey Mind mornings.  Hate those.  I could be sleeping in but I woke up for some unholy reason (probably to pee AGAIN) and now my mind is out of control.  It's rarely a good thing when this happens because the thoughts which hold me captive tend to involve me solving all of life's black holes.  Usually a futile activity, especially when the only other minds awake at this hour are those of the chickens.


The other disturbing element to monkey mind mornings (or nights, whichever) is the emotion which accompanies the pointless problem solving.  At this point in my life, that emotion is frequently anger salted with depression.  I find myself carrying on long one-sided dialogues with the people who have hurt me or judged me in ways that I feel are unfair.  I want to convince them that I am good.  That I bleed.  


Obviously, this is an unproductive waste of mental energy.  


When life isn't filled with so much trauma, these wakings can be positive.  I have been known to drive to Walmart at unmentionable hours to buy project supplies.  When I was pregnant with Kinsey I did just that, only to find I had not chosen a 24 hour store.  I waited impatiently in my car for the sun to rise so that I could buy what I needed to reface an old dresser for the nursery.  


I have to be careful when I get those odd-hour infusions of inspiration, however, because they are not always well thought out, or even sensical.  I can write profound monologues in my head, which seem to flow with such clarity, only to review them later to discover I wasn't the prodigy I had imagined myself to be.   It's humbling.


Regardless, here I am, spewing my morning genius all over you.  (And I'm laughing to myself because I just had brain melt and couldn't spell genius - wanted to spell it genious.)  So, possibly, I will read this later, after a nap and some medication, and be convicted to either delete this post or issue a long apology for it.  I am willing to take that risk because I am finding this a much better use of my mind than hosting the anger which was in charge for the first hour or so.


Of course, I like to offer my readers some inspiration (other than my afore mentioned wisdom), so I have chosen to include some photos of spaces or art that make me feel good.  Please enjoy...

Alkemie

Borrowed from Bella Maison

Little Crown Interiors

Thank you for sharing in my morning madness.

I must go nap now.

Saturday's Snippets (A Continuation of the Friend/Family-a-thon)

The Motion of Laughter.

The Warming of Hearts... and Toes.

And Marshmallows...

Papa Bear

Hello my blog friends.  I wanted to peek in and let you know that I am not neglecting you.  I am just on a friend/family-a-thon.  A bit of a pilgrimage to my homeland (Ventura County) as well.  

I would love for you to meet a VERY special man in my life...

This is my Grandfather, Herbert Wiles.

I was nervous seeing "Papa-bear".  We haven't spoken since my life has taken it's dramatic turn.  He is a patriarch of my conservative heritage, so, though I know him to be loving, I worried that I would only see disappointment in his eyes.  Not so.  He came right up to me, wrapped his arms around me tight and told me how much he loves me. 

Father figures have been blurry in my world.  They have not been a big source of warmth or acceptance.  His hug was such a contrast to that. Such good medicine.  

Thank you, Grandpa.

I wish we had more time.